lyrics

Oscillate yourself tonight
When you're in your bed
Assimilate the dopamine
Passing through your head

When you get back on a Saturday night
And the room is caving in
Do you look like me, do you feel like me
Do you turn into your effigy
Do you dance like this forever

See yourself in Cupid's lake
Chipped in your head
Do you indicate to satellites
Passing by the edge

When you get back on a Saturday night
And your head is caving in
Do you look like me, do you feel like me
Do you turn into your effigy
Do you dance like this forever
Do you dance like this forever

Do you look like me
Do you burn like me
Do you look like me
Do you burn like me
Do you look like me
Do you burn like me
Do you turn into your effigy
Do you look like this forever
Do you look like this forever

Do you dance
Do you dance
Do you dance
Do you dance

i'm sure people will want to argue with me the meaning of this song, as if songs can't have multiple meanings and people can't come away with entirely different interpretations of something from each other, but even if this song wasn't called "Tranz" it's always felt to me like a slice of the trans experience. looking in the mirror and seeing someone who isn't you, someone you wish you could burn along with all the hate and fear people feel for people like you. having to "dance", to perform your life in the way that's expected of you by society for your own safety, whether that's as a stealth and passing trans person or a closeted one who has to live by day as their assigned gender, no matter how much it kills you inside. wondering if you'll have to do this forever, if you can ever be out and comfortable and joyous in who you are.

this song is for young Silver, before their family discarded them, struggling with gender feelings they were on the cusp of understanding, being forced to wear the clothing of their assigned gender and their hair in styles they don't like. they wouldn't know yet why those things caused them so much pain and misery, why they never see themself when they look in the mirror, until much later, and even then they have to be stealth in much of their life for their own safety.