i just.
i can't even believe how bad this is.
i'm seriously begging at least ONE game studio that makes the games i play to stop inventing the most hideously bad game systems imaginable because i am reaching my god damn limit.
the pool of games i play, and my tastes are ridiculously narrow so that pool is already extremely small, only shrinks with time as i have to drop series after series for veering off the deep end going from something i genuinely love and enjoy into something i really dislike. and i know my tastes are particular as well as very unpopular and game companies will generally, sooner or later, turn towards things most people like. objectively, i understand this, but on an emotional and personal level i'm so damn tired of it. video games are one of the very few bastions i have against the neverending torrent of absolute bullshit i have to deal with on a daily basis, i just want these things i enjoy to stay things i enjoy for once.
but nah, can't have anything. WoW has to add a new talent system somehow even worse than the awful original talent system, bad enough i seriously contemplating quitting for good for a long while. i'm still not entirely convinced i should keep playing. then today, just now, i queue for pvp in ff14 and spawn in. where are my fucking skills. where did they go.
i knew they were redoing the pvp systems some but i expected and thought i would maybe at least be WARNED before i queued for pvp that they destroyed what were my current pvp hotkeys and maybe i should go redo them before queueing? so after being angry about that for a while i finished going over the skills and where i wanted them, but failed to notice something.
now i only enjoy pvp in any game as a healer. exclusively. actually fighting and killing people i actively detest and even though i'd rather never do pvp at all, every mmo these days ties rewards i want to its dumpster fire pvp systems so i reluctantly join the queue, but always to heal people.
in wow, healing pvp is almost relaxing in some maps. stressful in others, but at least i find ways of tolerating it to get those marks to get the things i want.
now i did this in ff14 as well, but now. i redo my white mage's skills, sigh and queue again for pvp, but failed to notice. my extremely, extremely pared down set of pvp skills, numbering at around 8 or 9, only includes a single heal. and i didn't see that single heal is on a cooldown.
oh but i have a second, tiny absorb! on an even longer cooldown!
there's no longer "healer" as a meaningful role in ff14's pvp systems i guess. we're all just dps with a side of maybe healing a little.
"livid" doesn't even begin to describe how i feel.
i guess i just hope it won't take that long to finish up the marks for things i want but what the fuck?? why?? why remove the only way i could even enjoy pvp? why? why is ff14 so insistent on having many of the absolute worst game systems i've ever encountered in all the mmos i've played?
god. honestly, fuck every single person who told me this game is better than wow. at least i can still heal people in pvp on wow.