waking up at 2pm after being awake until 6am is so nice, honestly. it's my most natural sleep cycle; waking when the sun sets at the very latest, going to bed when the sun rises. the only real reason i continue to work a "normal" daytime shift is because i like the night to be time for me and refuse to tolerate a job that will keep me past sunset, including in the winter when the sun sets at around 5:30. which i mean, it does help that the vast majority of jobs are day shift kinds of deals too.
admittedly, everything for me has been hard for a very long time. so long i frequently forget what "normal" levels of stress and anxiety feel like, and find it hard to relax on rare periods where things actually seem fine and like everything won't suddenly descend into catastrophic hell again. (because, unfortunately, it always seems to sooner or later.) this, along with the Fun problems that come with my neurotype, have made doing basic things like getting back my driver's license incredibly challenging. but most of the major life things i've needed done are finally done, with the exception of finding a new job which was one of the last things on the list since it depended on a few other things being done as sort of prerequisites. my current job is complete misery on every level and actively contribute to my depression every day i have to work, but you know it's pretty hard to find a new job when your life is constantly a chaotic mess that exponentially increases things like depression and executive dysfunction. i've made several attempts before, but never got far. hopefully, this time will be different.