me every time i have to deal with someone shitting on something i like yet again or barging into places where me and other fans are enjoying talking about something we like to go hey did you know about (x popular thing everyone knows about)???
people being like this incessantly is why i'm frankly so sensitized to my interests being torn apart or always found lacking, and at this point i'm teetering on the brink of just putting my foot down and forbidding people from talking to me if they're going to talk to me about how the things i like suck.
cool. yes. yoh don't like that game. alright. i don't know why you felt the need to tell me this. i don't know why you people keep coming into spaces that are clearly for interests that are not the thing you like to convert us to things you like. i don't know how many times i'm going to have to tell people this is just Christian missionary work playing out yet again but in fandom and the conversion in question is for a video game. i know when i say it it'll be met with people huffing and dismissing my frankly true claims. but i'm done with it. if you don't like what i like? that's objectively fine. but then go enjoy what you like with people who enjoy it and stop treating those of us who aren't already in your fan circles as potential "recruits." people are people and not pawns to further your own agendas.
i just. i have so little patience for this kind of bullshit purely because people won't stop being like this and i find myself increasingly out of energy to be kind or polite about it anymore. i can't even stand certain topics anymore because so many of the people who like those things have been wretched little bastards towards me and other people who like other things. and being sensitized doesn't mean people stop being wretched little bastards! they just keep doing it! and if you react it's a "sign people who like (x interest) are all crazy and antisocial."
sigh.
oh well. on the bright side i think this journal format is working out a bit better for me. i used to type everything into the neocities editor and save it as local files after the fact, but there's something just so... cozy about typing directly into a plaintext file and then having php simply grab the text fragment and render it into the page. i can't really explain it better than that. but hopefully this will remain the more sustainable option, as i'm not sure what i'd do if it didn't. it likely will though, i've always been like this about plaintext for some reason. probably just the Brainweird things about me manifesting again.