my journal

April 3rd 2023

a shittily drawn, wrinkly, exhausted looking cat lying flat on the ground sketched in a pixel brush. text around the cat reads in all uppercase: too exhausted to live, too anxious to die.

there have been people in my house for. FOUR. DAYS. STRAIGHT.

i am at the end of my social energy and am about to start biting and screaming if i have to tolerate this for even one more day

and i don't even dislike the one guy! he's fine! i just have extremely low social energy especially when the social things are happening in my place of residence. i don't know how to say this but i mean this in the kindest way possible: please fucking leave.

other life things are also still exhausting. did you know over half of adults on this continent can't read at even a children's level, let alone an adult's, and that reading comprehension is extremely low particularly in younger people? which i mean. this does explain pretty much all the horrendous interactions i've had with people on tumblr before i outright deleted my entire account since the userbase there skews so extremely young, but like. holy shit. i know the education system failing you is a tragedy of massive proportions but that still doesn't make it any less wrong to scream at and harass people for things they didn't even fucking say.

did you know due to the massive overuse and misuse of antibiotics we're moving towards a pre-antibiotic world as the bacteria and other microbes develop resistance to every drug we have and develop? i already knew that but the reminder of it is abjectly terrifying. i don't think most people realize what that truly means, like how many people fucking died before the development of modern antibiotics. death from infection was common enough at the turn of the century several children from every class at school would die before the school year's end just from common infections and illnesses.

i won't stand for anyone trying to blame this on "humanity" as a whole either. humans aren't "naturally good" but we aren't "naturally evil" either. the descent of the world from late stage capitalism to full-on fascism and the neverending greed of the ultra-rich are squarely to blame, and from what i can tell most people despise these things. i sure fucking hope, anyway.