trying writing a post here directly on dreamwidth now. having a dreamwidth i'm actually using feels good; i kind of wish i'd done this sooner, but my life's been so swamped with ludicrously depressing bullshit it's been hard to really. bother with all of this. also i wasn't sure i wanted to dedicate myself to a journalling site again after livejournal died. (sure, it's technically still online and usable, but the entire userbase i interacted with regularly is gone, and the site is owned by a very shady company now. sigh...)
no website really lasts forever, anyway. whenever dreamwidth bites it i'll be sad to lose this place; it's never seemed as active or popular as livejournal did back in the day, but it still has all the features i love that are noticeably missing from social media sites, and is owned by people i trust vastly more not to ruin the site than the original company that owned livejournal.
even so, dreamwidth will be gone eventually. it's sad to think about, but nothing lasts, and i'll just hope dreamwidth is at least around for a long time to come. i'll probably just not even bother with a journalling site mirror and will stick with pure static html personal website journal posts then. always the advantage of html, there's no exporting or losing data or anything unless you're just straight-up not even bothering to back up your html at all. just save the files to your local disk and it's done, no need to do any fancy shit to try and preserve database structures or anything.
it's nice to have a place like this to post, though. maybe it will encourage me to write things that aren't secret depression posts all the time, lol.
also... need to upload more icons. every time i write a post i want to use a specific one i either haven't uploaded yet or am too drained to finagle with the icon to make dreamwidth stop hating it and let me actually upload it. seems to only be a problem with a few specific gif icons and not others...
at some point in the next few months, i'm going to have to get myself a replacement computer (on credit of course, i'm not fucking made of money...) i'll be sad to replace this one at all, it's around 6 or 7 now, i don't even remember which anymore, and is really reaching the end of its usability as a gaming computer for me. it's a pretty good tablet laptop with all the features i want: dedicated graphics card (a very modest one, but workable), decent amount of RAM built in, and the part i am most picky about: a full-screen MAGNETIC pressure-sensitive digitizer and a BATTERYLESS electromagnetic resonance stylus. NO BATTERIES. battery powered styluses are shit garbage and not worth the materials they're made of. (yes, i mean all of them! even those god damn Apple Pencils people keep annoying me about! they use batteries, therefore they are worthless and an inferior drawing experience to the smooth precision of pure magnetic connection!)
also, this thing is samsung; it came with a samsung s-pen. which i have absolutely zero brand loyalty whatsoever but i will begrudgingly admit it is a phenomenal drawing experience and even has shit like tilt detection. i have no love for samsung but will only stop buying their devices when they stop being the only company making things to my exacting, demanding specifications....
anyway. my strong feelings on styluses have gotten this post away from me. i'm going to (probably) be replacing this with a regular gaming laptop, because even though samsung continues to be the only fucking company innovating stylus phones in ways that greatly interest me, they stopped making tablet laptops like this one. forcing me to make some hard choices. i'm not thrilled with the idea of having two laptops, one for gaming and one that will only be used for art, but unless in the next few months some absolute miracle of tablet laptop development occurs and my dream laptop is suddenly produced by fucking somebody it's gonna have to be this way.
oh well. this will at least let me experiment with linux. i have pretty extreme anxiety about making big changes to my computers both in the software and hardware department, so it hasn't been very feasible to do linux on a computer i'm using as my "main" gaming computer. (also this laptop i'm currently using has a tiny-ass hard drive that my games are finally filling to the brim... so no room to dual-boot.) i've wanted to try linux for a long while now though, and since i'm already using krita as my main drawing program getting it set up in its native environment shouldn't be too bad, i think.
probably going to go with mint, though some friendly and helpful trans girl furries have suggested manjaro to me in the past so i may look it over too.
apparently, i had a lot of things to write. i'm not yet sure if i will maintain this kind of posting length and cadence, but for now it's interesting to be doing again, if nothing else.
edit: changed the icon to one that was more what i wanted to use.