my journal

September 30th 2024

im so fuckin tired so i hope any of what i'm going to say makes sense, but i've been thinking about this on and off for a while and seeing something that reminded me of a funny Miraculous Ladybug post i saw a while ago made me start thinking about this again.

i've never actually sat down and watched Miraculous Ladybug, so everything i've absorbed from it has really just been people i come across in the fandom talking and making memes about it. but there was a long while where i only saw bits and pieces and didn't even know the main character's names, so, frankly i thought Chat Noir was a girl for quite a while lmao and seeing people post about the show i'd be like 👍 nice. glad we live in the times where we can have two girl show leads who seem pretty obviously slated to be together in some capacity. adorable! good for them!! i love these two cute oblivious lesbians

SO YOU CAN IMAGINE HOW DISTRAUGHT I WAS TO EVENTUALLY FIND OUT CHAT NOIR FUCKING ISN'T ACTUALLY THE TOMBOY GIRL I THOUGHT HE WAS AT ALL

i was so angry and felt so betrayed lmao though also it's pretty funny i even thought that. but he just looks so much like a girl!!! i seriously got big tomboy vibes from him as someone who lived a lot of their life as a tomboy girl before realizing i could drop the girl part
so my amusement at the whole thing turned into calling him "Chad" and extended that to "Chad Noir" even after i learned his actual name because i mean. come on. look at him. LOOK AT HIM. HE LOOKS LIKE HIS NAME IS CHAD. it's such a blond white boy son of very affluent parents kind of name. and i have to emphasize i started doing this before all those GigaChad or whatever memes picked up and determined what the vast majority of internet people associate with the name SO I CAN'T EVEN CALL HIM CHAD ANYMORE EITHER BECAUSE PEOPLE WILL THINK I MEAN IT IN THE MEME WAY AND NOT IN THE RICH WHITE BOY NAME WAY. EVERYTHING IS TAKEN FROM ME. NO NICE THINGS FOR SILVER EVER!!!!

(this is still all very funny to me i must further stress here lmao it's just also like god damn how does this happen to me why is my life like this rofl)

anyway i was thinking about this again today and i still feel like i'm right. Chad Adrian should be a girl. which i now mean in the sense that i was right the first time. they're both girls. just one of them hasn't realized she's a girl yet. 😼