a wretched little espurr felinid psyker grey cat in your house right now stealing all your cake and fish.
sometimes i go on the internet and play terrible video games.
i don't know what else to put here. watch my stream or something, or don't idc
idk what this page is doing. i put it together on a whim. i'm too tired to give a fuck about making it look nice anymore. go my terribly arranged html elements
did you really write this entire site in notepad?
yes. :)
i sometimes use the neocities editor as well because the syntax highlighting is nice, but all my websites and complete layout re-do's begin life as an entirely blank notepad file and at this point i'm very used to reading my own wretched blocks of hell code with notepad's complete lack of syntax highlighting.
are you insane????
where did the picture of that graffiti you're using as your banner come from?
it was actually local graffiti art done on the back of a laundromat i thought was funny and took a picture of.
sadly the graffiti didn't last long and got painted over pretty quickly, but thankfully it has been immortalized on my site forever.
some of your other profiles on the internet say you don't use "tone tags"? why not?
for tone tags / indicators that are acronyms or single letters: i do not respond to or acknowledge these whatsoever, sorry. this is for two major reasons; one being i am neurodivergent myself and find it absolutely ridiculous other neurodivergent people on the internet have chosen to attempt to replace the confusing and arbitrary set of social rules society forces upon us with a different and, frankly, equally as confusing and arbitrary set of social rules. and then get angry when people like myself point out this is not only inaccessible to everyone but also reproducing the very same communication problems this system tries to rectify. having to memorize and correctly use all of the very, very many tone tags i've seen is something i find exhausting and frustrating to the point of being completely undoable.
additionally, no one can even seem to agree on what these letters and acronyms even fucking mean. searching the web for meanings is not only something that's unrealistic to expect for every single new acronym tone tag encountered when there seem to be so many now, it's also unrealistic in that web searching / "googling" itself tends to often lead to useless results. even with my own searches using search aggregators that return actually useful results, there are frequently conflicting and even opposite definitions for whatever a given acronym actually means, when they're not overlapping with much more widely used internet slang.
because that's what these really are: internet slang. which is fine to use with your friends or any other small insular social group where the assumption this particular kind of slang is known is a reasonable thing to want! it's just ridiculous and frankly stupid this expectation of memorizing a bunch of acronyms that aren't obvious in meaning (and unintuitive to a lot of neurodivergent people!) seems to have both been applied to the wider internet and is in some places now an expectation and demand. again, exactly like the same oppressive social systems this one sought to avoid.
anyway. for tone tags / indicators that are whole words or sentences: yes! i use these! this is how i indicate tone and clarify intent! while i don't expect everyone to have the mental energy to type out an entire sentence for clarification, frankly i do expect a minimum of taking the extra 0.2 seconds to type out the rest of the letters to make a whole word rather than shortening that word to a few letters. adding (sarcasm) instead of whatever smaller amount of letters are supposed to mean this in the "tone tag" system to the end of a statement makes your intent clear to everyone, even neurotypical people and people not familiar with acronym tone tags.
i do understand some people find typing out whole words to be unfeasible (which i'll admit is a bit strange to me considering how typing whole words is the only way we can even communicate with each other online), but if this isn't something someone is able to do: we're just better off not speaking to each other then, sorry. sometimes conflicting needs can't be reconciled.
i read your writing on AO3 and it just isn't very good. why don't you look up some writing tips so your writing isn't so bland?
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don't you actually care about improving at all?
i mean, kind of... but i primarily write things that give me some kind of catharsis or just generally make me feel better about all the shit i'm dealing with in my life. i write those stories for myself. i also post them in case someone else finds them vaguely interesting, but i don't post them with any expectations that anyone else will actually like them at all.
why do you put spaces around your em dashes? do you know the correct format is with no spaces?
yes, but it bothers my brain greatly to see em dashes without spaces around them. autism reasons. you know the drill.
does reality ever not feel real to you?
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